I just thought of something very interesting...

Whenever it has ever come to God I thought of myself as this: I don't walk FOR Him, I walk WITH Him. Its just a thought. My mission is also his mission. I am no Christian. I am not one of his followers. I'm not baptized, I don't think I should be; I think the way I am is a bit off of that, and that isn't my path. It also isn't the path of my True Self. I walk the middle ground, that of Twilight. I respect Him, but still. I don't fight for him, I fight for those that believe in him. Why am I rambling about God? Well, my 1 yr anniversary is coming up. And its on the 23rd of May.... The fact that we are as we are is interesting in itself and in how it exists as well. Its a molding of two lives into one, and in so doing has created a larger mission for the two of us.
I so happened to randomly pick up one of the 3 or so Bibles I have yesterday night (Christian high school for 2 1/2 yrs go figure.) and picked a random page on a random spot. This is what I got:

Psalm 23; A Psalm of David
"The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, [a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever."

Heh... I just don't know what to think about it. I laughed. I was amused. I am a knight of the same mission, but not his. In time of need surely, however in no other. Its my pact. Other than that, I am free and are held down by no old oaths. I am amused. Modern Christians fascinate me.

So. On to other things... Sort of.

School is done, my last final is Monday and I couldn't be happier. This past year has been life changing, and written in stone for all eternity literally almost. So many things I have undergone spiritually and physically I am happy I have succeeded in my past year's mission. I have completed it and am ready for my next mission. That is my duty as the soldier I am and the other parts of me are.

I feel so whole now... And yet... Life and the afterlife are the same in one way in that they are funny. Ironic; too bitter, too sweet. And I understand. I wish that spiritually some things hadn't happened but I know that it was meant to be. And I am happy, I feel whole, and I feel right. On top of that, I was personally told and shown that it was okay... For that I can't be more grateful, or content.

Take me to my next step.
~

This year is another pivotal year, now will come the change, great cataclysmic change for the better, of my on doing because all that is needed is the first step. Which I will provide.

The only thing that stops me is myself.


Good day/evening to you all. May you all go home safely to your beds and sleep well.
~Z